Sunday, June 21, 2015

My thoughts on church this weekend...

This weekend at my church we had Stake Conference (which is basically multiple church buildings from different specific areas coming to worship together.) I learned a lot of things, but I think I learned the most from our Stake President, President Holland.

God appreciates everything we do for Him, every sacrifice or offering that we make to Him, it will be important no matter how small the effort may be. When we make decisions and choices we need to do them with the Lord's help.  We need to counsel with Him through prayer, pondering and studying of the scriptures. This will help us not only include Him in our decision making so that we know we're doing the things that He would have us do, but it will also strengthen our relationship with Him and make it so we have of better understanding of the direction our life should go in that will bring us the maximum happiness.

Something President Holland mentioned was that we also need to make our efforts in everything we do, with ourselves, with the Lord and with others (when appropriate) transparent. These are some of the ways that we can be transparent: being honest (not brutally honest though), truthful, admitting our faults and short comings - not hiding them and also owning up to them and correcting them and trying to improve. After looking the definition of the word up it talked a lot about being able to have light pass through, being recognized, being open or see through. And I think how we can do this is by being our true selves. Following our passions as well as doing those things so that we can have the light that Christ brings into our lives shining through us. By doing this it will also help us to become more gracious, kind and generous in our lives.

I know those things definitely are not easy. And they're not meant to be. Another thing President Holland said was that we can be blessed by doing hard things and one of those blessings we can receive is growing our character and who we are. If we all tried to improve being transparent in our lives even in one way it will improve our life. I know that in order to best be able to improve is by turning to Lord and ask Him for help, but by doing so we need to be ready and willing to do whatever He asks of us. God knows us better than we know ourselves, so turning to Him, trusting in Him and following the promptings that he gives unto us will be the best way to help us to become more transparent in our lives and strive to become the best version of ourselves.


Sunday, June 14, 2015

Who am I?

Who am I?  How would you define yourself?

These are questions we ask ourselves, or other ask us quite often.

Sometimes we don't know how to answer because one thing does not define us.  There are many things that define us and we don't know what all of those things are. We are all here discovering and creating parts of ourselves each day.

I've decided to create this blog to share my thoughts on whatever I feel is important and to help myself both discover and create myself and hopefully help other people along the way.

So who exactly is Melissa?

Well I'm a 25 female who is under five feet tall.

I have an introverted personality - if you're familiar with the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator I'm an INFP and sometimes an INFJ.  They aren't 100% accurate with how your personality is - but for me they've helped me understand myself a bit more.  And realize that there are other people who think similar to how I do.

Purple is my favorite color. And I love art - mainly painting and drawing.

Although, I love graphic design as well which was one of my majors in college. I recently graduated with a degree in that as well as a degree in Early Childhood Education from Salem State University this May!  College was an interesting journey and experience and I'm excited that I finally have finished my undergrad.

I love children and babies. I always have as long as I could remember. Growing up I'd love to play with the younger kids in the neighborhood.  I never found babysitting to be much of a job but more of something enjoyable that I got paid for. In high school I realized I wanted to be a teacher - but for young children. I love all ages, but I definitely prefer the younger ages. I have a passion for teaching - and I love seeing that I've been able to help a child learn something.

I also have the most adorable niece in the entire world. Everyone thinks that though right? You could say I'm obsessed with her, and I kind of am. I have the most amazing relationship/bond with her and I'm so grateful for that. She's 4. And from the moment she's been born she's taught me a lot. She's one of my best friends, she's like a younger sister sometimes, but also like my own daughter sometimes - and is definitely giving me a sneak peak into what having my own kids will be like someday, and is just wonderful.

I love animals. I always have. I used to beg my parents for a dog. I remember wanting a horse at one point too. I used to have posters of animals all over my room. I grew up with the best cat in the entire world. Her name was Princess. She passed away around a year ago - she was old. We have two kittens now - Dutchess and Contessa. And I love them to death. They can be big pains sometimes but they're also so sweet and stress relieving.

I'm religious and spiritual. I grew up Catholic, but 3 years ago I converted to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints also known as the Mormon Church. I have nothing against the Catholic Church - I think it's great and my family of course is Catholic.  My personal beliefs just align with the LDS church more and I was able to gain a relationship with God through my interactions with this church and it's missionaries.  And I continue to strengthen that relationship to this day. It's a huge part of my life personally and it helps me get through difficult times and brings peace, happiness, it stretches me and has helped me understand myself so much more.

I can get pretty passionate about certain things. I'm passionate about art, about animals, children, teaching children, my religion.  Two more examples would be two of my favorite singers: David Archuleta and Demi Lovato.  I've met them both multiple times - either by saving my own money to purchase meet and greets or as a gift or pure luck by winning a contest. Both of them have helped me in different ways through their music or their life in general (well the parts of their lives they've decided to share with the world). They're both people just like the rest us. They just have this amazing gift and talent when it comes to music, both vocally and instrumentally. They both also know how to reach people on a personal level through their musical talents. I relate to both of them in completely different ways, which is part of why I've become so passionate about supporting them in their music and their lives in general.

One more thing I am extremely passionate about, and something I probably will never shut up about while I'm on this earth; Mental Health Awareness, ending the stigma of mental health, educating people on mental health and trying to help others in any possible way who have mental illnesses.

I have both Anxiety and Depression - some may argue that we all do. And to an extent we all do experience anxiety, and we all do have emotions and get sad. But how's that make what I have different? It effects my day to day life. This is something I will definitely go into more detail in another blog post.

What else is there to know about me?  I'd like to say I have a huge heart. I try to love people a lot and show them that. I feel others people's emotions - aka I'm am empath.  I'm a sensitive person. I love visuals. I'm horrible at math and it scares me. Yet I analyze everything, almost too much. I like to make connections. Most of the time I miss the details, unless it's something I care about then I notice every single detail. I sometimes can think in extremes, and other times I feel stuck in the middle with my thoughts. Most of the time I don't understand myself. My thinking a lot of the time makes no sense and is completely illogical. I've recently learned that I love to cook, but only sometimes. I usually hate waking up in the mornings and it tends to be a struggle. I'm both a perfectionist and a procrastinator at the same time.

I'm not sure what else to say except:

This is who I am. And I'm still figuring out a lot of it, and then creating other parts. Feel free to ask my any questions if you want to know anything.